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So I honestly thought that University would be school, but it feels kind of silly calling it school. To me, school is a place you go to learn; math, science, some juxtaposition and perhaps for uni some art history or something sterotypical. Never once did i expect it to show me the cynics of the world, and furthermore the flaws in the life that each of us ignorently pass through in a day.
The first thing seperating uni from school was the amount of athiests enrolled. The first time I met someone that was straight up like "yaa im athiest" i was like whoa what? you do exist? I mean to deny the presence of anything more seems a bit silly to me considering something had to put us here. But then a lot of my friends started to feel that way to. They would tell me about their lectures and how their profs would say "well we have a lot of proof in the existance of the big bang, however we have no proof of a higher being". But i suppose many would argue the alternate way. It started to bother me because even though i was never the kind of person that would attend church every sunday or pray, i always beleived. The more people I met the more they would confess their nihilism and suggest i was being ignorent. I suppose in a way thats true. I have no desire to research the existance of God, I think that faith and belief in something is not only completely possible but necessary to happiness. So yes, maybe im choosing to not look at the science, or the stats behind it, but im happy with my beliefs.

The next thing I noticed is how much the world is truly messed up. Every problem that the world has ever been faced with has been created by us. It is like the worst relationship in the universe- started fine, more complexities= more problems. I realized this a lot this year, but mainly when learning about history. I realized that the further back you look in time the less problems there were. For example, hunting/gathering(pre-industrial) societies would give gifts to prevent conflict, encourage working together, share everything, and there was complete equality. No man or woman was above another in most situations- and if they were it was because they earned respect from doing something great. What happened? We started out in the world that we say we strive for daily. But this begs the question, are all of the industries, all of the advancements, worth definate peace? Definate security, finacially and culturally? And furthermore acceptance? We say that we want peace, happiness, equality, but if thats the case than isnt the answer in front of us, and if we could erase the industrial rev, the scientific rev, the agricultural rev, would we? Would we do it for the things we preach so much that we want. I dont think we would, and I think that says a lot about us. I know that as much as I want those things, I don't think i would want to sacrifice the world we live in today.

Finally, I am seeing now that there is a clear division of labor. A year ago at this time the people who will live their lives working retail, and the people who will become brilliant scientists were in the same hallways, perhaps same classrooms. But now, for so many people life has just begun. They are working a job that they will probably be doing for years, if not the rest of their lives, and the next big thing to look forward to is perhaps marriage? A family? Its such a difference for people who are in school.

Now that i have realize these and so many other things I am seeing how I have spent my life being so ignorent to everything. And truly, ignorance is bliss.