Lets all go to britan

Lets all go to britan.
They listen to the cutest music, produce hotties like mark ronson, and start all the hottest fashions.
And lets face it, were already living a more neive form of their culture. I mean when you see Europeans you see all their random crazy styles, and they just do whatever they want, who cares what others think right? But here everyone looks and dresses and sounds the same, if anyone tried to be an individual they wont be accepted, they wont get jobs or have friends unless they were the same as then. What makes being the same so cool anyways?

Anyways, i got my grad dress
well i ordered it, its supposed to arrive on may 24...5 days before my grad so not to much room for error, but i guess its good bc i dont have to stress to much about maintaining my weight because alterations will happen just a few days before grad, everyone seems to think it wont come on time, but i guess it is what it is? Everyone seemed fascinated by my color choice-navy blue. My little idea was to much to come true. But i guess there are always other ways to help the world.

So i got an email from the Junos, saying that they will email me my volunteering shifts. Sweet, volunteering at the Junos, hello resume. But i guess no one else got an email yet, we all did apply for different things but still, it was a pretty generalized email. So i guess if i end up getting the "volunteer position" or whatever itll be time to make some new friends. Cute boys? Yes please.

Anyways. Ive procrastinated just over an hour thats to much.
Homework time..

bananna pancakes

Everything in life should be like that song.
It really would make the world such a happier place,
but i guess some bloc party and kleenix can be a start to finding it.

So tonight was a party..
literally, but not in the sense as it was fun.
I really didnt feel like i fit in at all with those kids, maybe only when i bring my friend and foe amaratto, and smirnoff, but not under sober circumstances.

I had a 26 in my hands, i dont see why i didnt just drink it up, i would of had more fun. I would of looked like a loser, getting crunk with everyone else sober or maybe a little buzzed. I know i made a good choice, but i guess i just wanted to fit in but im not someone that does, and i dont want to compromise other things to fit in.

Then you didnt talk to me the whole night.
It wasnt even like you had to say alot but maybe you could of walked me out when i left, considering i was in YOUR HOUSE.

And as for "fago", you could of stopped being a douche and actually been straight up.
Okay, bring your girlfriend, make things awkward whatever but at least have the decency to be straight up about it.

And you little bitch. Close your mouth thanks.
When someone 5 years older, and double your size says something its best if you dont give me a smart comment back. Okay? Thanks.



Ugh. Im going to bed.

blehh

Okay, so looking back on mine and U(some names have been changed to protect those involved:))'s friendship, it turns out theres so much ive delt with. I was thinking about this because of the sudden hateration i seem to be under, and i remember last year during field hockey how straight up rude you were, which bothered me so much bc at the time i was totaly at the top of my game and deal with an injurying, being capty and other stuff. Then this year its like on and off, were so tight when in some situations and seriously your so rude in others. I dont get it U, i really dont.

And as for S, and her sudden distancing herself, not cool as well. I get that your queen bee, but really theres a point where its time to calm it down. I dont think its fair for you to be so upset with the ex, when you seemed to be the one who made out with that guy from your work? And he seemed to be such a sweet nice guy. Ive done nothing but be your friend and if i was involved in this situation i wouldnt take a side because i know that one of my "closest friends" is wrong. Not cool s, not cool.

The worst part is, i dont even know why i care so much. In 3 months ill never see half these kids every again, no more then half, ugh whatever i guess thats Highschool for you.

Thanks 50cent

Hey baby.
So it looks like its time for a blog sesh to occur, im totally guilty of blogging in grade 9, but thats defs a secret. Blaire is a star, and clearly she owns me in this field but theres no reason why i cant write a bit about how i feel. Today was dec, i love that im actually trying so far in school, its abit of a hollow try i must confess, its like i try so hard, and put so much work but i feel like i have so much more to give. It makes me so mad that i went from a 65 in a class like science, not trying at all to an 80(minus diploma), trying just a little harder, i guess it shows that you can really achieve so much more with a little bit of work.

I had a nice dentist sesh today, i thought it was all going well until i got reffered to a tmj(jaw) specialist. Sooo here goes the fun experience of specialists and doctors and specialists and tests and on and on.. for the first like 3 months of school it was just dr after dr after doctor, now im into the drs that it takes 3 months to get into see, so i guess now its a new dr every three months. I cant decide which is worse.

So i decided that being single is so great half the time, and so completely awful half the time. its so great when you can go to a random place like a friends school dance, or a basketball game and come away with a mini crush that goes away after a day, its so fun just to play around and see how things happen and thats how new oppertunities are created for relationships anyways, but at the same time who doesnt love a little relationship once in a while? Oh well, honestly grade 12 is working out to be a single year, but i guess minor crushs and flirt seshs are better then an being with a boy, when really your looking at his best friend anyways ;)
Jks.

But its a nice thought haha.

Have a good night:)
xoxo